Monday, December 21, 2009 @ 4:28 AM
I remember a time when I used to wonder what on earth is life all about. All about studying, working then dying?
I remember a time I used to sit in my father's car when returning home late in the night. My mum and dad sitting in the front, my brother beside me. And I would look up to the dark, dark night and cry silently. It'll all end one day, I told myself. And where will each of my family be? Where will I be? Wondering, wandering, alone. I hated this despair.
I remember I used to look out of my window to the world outside and wonder, who am I? Why am I here?
One word to describe all these-lost. I was so lost in a world in a world I do not know or understand.
I remember a time when I was chained by superstition and myths. Don't step on books or I'll fail my exams, not to cut my nails at night or I'll shorten my parent's lives, I must do this or follow that so that I can be blessed and what not. Held as a prisoner to these lies, where fear was what kept me chained to them.
Looking back now, I'm so angry at the fact that I wasted time and energy trying to follow the lies, so angry I was controlled by fear.
One thing I lack-freedom. Freedom from fear, worry, depression. Well, the chains are broken; I'm free now.
I remember the times when I was all alone thinking, no one understands me. What the heck, no one even loves me. Everyone seems to have gone through this before. But I felt an empty feeling in me, like there's no meaning in my life, like there's something missing in my heart.
One thing I needed-love. Not a love like what the world gives, where love came with hurt, deceit and unfaithfulness. Where to find love so pure and holy?
Then I was shown of a love like no other. God Almighty came down on Christmas night to the sinful world we live in.
He came to find my soul, broke my chains, told me who I was to Him and carried me into His arms.
Now I know what my life is for, the meaning of my life, for He told me personally.
Now I know of a hope that there will not be an end, in fact I look forward to going home to heaven after leaving this world. Finally. :)
Now I am free from all lies of the world, for I have someone so powerful and mighty looking after me. What can make me fear?
Now I know of a love that the world doesn't. A love...that cannot be explained. It is so personal to me.
Now I know who I am- a daughter of the Most High, His beloved child. The devil cannot even touch me.
He came down on Christmas to give me all these and more, and whatever He has given to me, He's waiting to give to you. He won't push, won't rush, but He'll wait for you. Waiting for the day that you'll receive from Him.
The true meaning of Christmas- Jesus.
Merry Christmas.
Enjoy Christmas with your loved ones yeah! Whoo CHRISTMAS! :D
Enjoy Christmas with your loved ones yeah! Whoo CHRISTMAS! :D