Monday, December 21, 2009 @ 4:28 AM

I remember a time when I used to wonder what on earth is life all about. All about studying, working then dying?

I remember a time I used to sit in my father's car when returning home late in the night. My mum and dad sitting in the front, my brother beside me. And I would look up to the dark, dark night and cry silently. It'll all end one day, I told myself. And where will each of my family be? Where will I be? Wondering, wandering, alone. I hated this despair.

I remember I used to look out of my window to the world outside and wonder, who am I? Why am I here?

One word to describe all these-lost. I was so lost in a world in a world I do not know or understand.

I remember a time when I was chained by superstition and myths. Don't step on books or I'll fail my exams, not to cut my nails at night or I'll shorten my parent's lives, I must do this or follow that so that I can be blessed and what not. Held as a prisoner to these lies, where fear was what kept me chained to them.

Looking back now, I'm so angry at the fact that I wasted time and energy trying to follow the lies, so angry I was controlled by fear.

One thing I lack-freedom. Freedom from fear, worry, depression. Well, the chains are broken; I'm free now.

I remember the times when I was all alone thinking, no one understands me. What the heck, no one even loves me. Everyone seems to have gone through this before. But I felt an empty feeling in me, like there's no meaning in my life, like there's something missing in my heart.

One thing I needed-love. Not a love like what the world gives, where love came with hurt, deceit and unfaithfulness. Where to find love so pure and holy?

Then I was shown of a love like no other. God Almighty came down on Christmas night to the sinful world we live in.

He came to find my soul, broke my chains, told me who I was to Him and carried me into His arms.

Now I know what my life is for, the meaning of my life, for He told me personally.

Now I know of a hope that there will not be an end, in fact I look forward to going home to heaven after leaving this world. Finally. :)

Now I am free from all lies of the world, for I have someone so powerful and mighty looking after me. What can make me fear?

Now I know of a love that the world doesn't. A love...that cannot be explained. It is so personal to me.

Now I know who I am- a daughter of the Most High, His beloved child. The devil cannot even touch me.

He came down on Christmas to give me all these and more, and whatever He has given to me, He's waiting to give to you. He won't push, won't rush, but He'll wait for you. Waiting for the day that you'll receive from Him.

The true meaning of Christmas- Jesus.

Merry Christmas.

Enjoy Christmas with your loved ones yeah! Whoo CHRISTMAS! :D

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 2:20 AM

This whole week has been such a blessed week for me! Although it's only like the very start of wednesday.

Monday, monday, oh oh! We had a complementary badminton coach when we played badminton on monday, how cool is that! Met up with Joshua(ong) and yinlin to play badminton and all of a sudden this guy looking like some 黑社会老大 came into the court and played doubles with us.

While playing, he kept advising us on what to do and stuff with alot of patience. In the end, he ended up coaching us in detail and even asked us to have a friendly run when we lost a match, like a real training session!

HAHA this is so funny! I was asking yanping to type out the chinese characters for me on msn so I can blog, then she forgot to change the language back to english!

♥ yan piпg- says (1:09 AM):
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HAHA! 妇女内衣我入!! It literally means I'm going into some woman's underwear. Funnyyyyyy!

Anyways, back to the badminton playing gang-leader-lookalike. He has tattoos down his arm and looks super buff but I tell you, he's the most patient and encouraging coach I have ever met! Wow it was a really enjoyable badminton session with him, I learnt so much. :)

How blessed is that right, God placed us at the right place at the right time. Too bad we didn't take a picture with him. :/

Tuesday, tuesday. Yinlin and I needed to choreograph a dance for my caregroup in church. Was quite worried about how we're going to go about doing it at first but then somehow, we managed to do up the whole dance in like 2 hours! Girls and guys part too! Ahaha blessed with erm, ideas. :) And by investing time to serve God, He's going to bless us with double portion of time!

Was sharing with my caregroup the other day about how life this year has been for me. Seriously this year has been such a blessed, blessed, blessed year. Every day, in everything that I do, I can see God's footsteps in my life guiding me, leading me. That is the ultimate blessing in my life and from there, all the other awesome blessings come along. :)

God Almighty Himself taking me by my hand and guiding me to the best pathway of my life, giving me the best that life can offer and yet, who am I do deserve such awesome love? Haha that's a question I ask myself often.

To the world I am nothing, yet to the most powerful Being in the universe, I am everything to Him. I want to remain in this love forever.

I'm alive in You Jesus. ♥

Here's a posting I found: :)

I was on a plane yesterday flying to Florida. Behind me sat a father with his two small children. The boy seemed excited to be on the plane and kept looking out the window. He would tell everyone to “look how high we are” and “now were turning.” Being a former “white-knuckled” flier myself, I am sure that his announcements didn’t sit too well with some of the people on the plane who just wanted the ride over with and to be back on solid ground again.

But as he made his announcements, his sister just sat between him and her father and never said a word.

I started to fall asleep when I heard this little voice from behind me say “Dad, I’m scared.” Her father told her that there was nothing to be scared about.

She was quiet for another minute or two and then she said again “but Dad I’m scared.”

Then in this meek little voice, in which you could hear her anxiety, she both said and asked at the same time “Daddy? Hold my hand?”

How many times have we been in the same position as this little girl? It doesn’t have to be a plane ride that we are scared or worried about. We can be scared or worried about anything at any time; nonetheless, we all have times when we have that little voice inside of us that would like to say “Hold my hand.”

We may no longer have our parents to hold our hands when we are scared. We may now be the person that is asked to hold someone’s hand to comfort them. We may need to be strong for others.

No matter how strong we are in our effort to comfort others, there are times when the scared child lives inside of us.

In those times who do WE, the strong ones, turn to for our comfort?

We turn to God.

God’s own words tell us::

“For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” Isaiah 41:13

God wants to hold our hand and comfort us. All we need to do is ask for His comfort and then take His hand.

When we got off the plane in Florida, I saw the little girl reach up and take her fathers hand again. This time not for comfort but, rather, as an unspoken “Thank you daddy. I love you.”

Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @ 3:45 AM

I LOVE MY WEIRDO BAYBEHS (-1)!

Just finished the outreach, homecoming and my dance camp. Don't mind dying now to get my new bodyyyy!

I just wana say, I love my dancers! Be it AJ dancers or my secondary school dance mates, I love you guys ttm! You guys make me rofl all the time!

And I'm going to play bball with my cg mates tomorrow whoo! How is that possible when I have a repelling force with basketballs, literally. Gg man. It's for the people, I'm going for the peeps man! :D

HAHA check out my abbreviations! Gg- good game, ttm- to the max, rofl- roll on the floor laughing, ttyl- talk to you later! Kudos to aj for spicing up my language. :D

I miss my baybehs, I miss my cg, I miss aj (wow), I miss arrow, I miss new creation. Thank You Daddy for filling up my life with so much blessings!

Ttyl ttyl ttyl ttyl ttyl!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 @ 11:03 PM

Come on, let's sing and dance!
For the joy of God in us is just so indescribable. :)

After promos- window shopping with siying. I like that. :) Went with her to the bus interchange's information counter to find her missing phone today.

We sat at a bench to pray that she'll be able to find her phone there before we went up to the counter.

While we prayed, something stirred in me, comfort came upon me. It's all going to be good, I felt those words arise from within me. I knew it then and there that God was listening to my every word of prayer and He has answered it already.

There's my hope, not in a person to find and report the missing phone, not in the woman at the counter, but in God.

We went up to the woman to ask.

"I'm sorry, don't have."

Woah those simple words could have easily crushed the hope I had in me but no, my hope stayed, my hope increased. I clung on to the words that arose from before, it's all going to be good. Those words must have been from God, deep down inside giving me the supreme hope that my prayers were answered.

It's all going to be good, that means that God is going to take care of the problem, it's already in His hands. And and He's going to cause all things to work out for siying's good in the end. Yes, it's all going to be good. :)

Even siying was full of hope, saying that God will bless her with a much better phone or that God has prevented her from hearing bad news via her phone hahaha! :D

Such awesome hope can only come from God, who in the right mind would think of the good things that will occur after losing something important? Only a hopeful child of God. :)

How cool is that, my God works in such awesome ways. Not just a dead yes or no, but hope. He gives us the hope and security that we can always trust in Him for everything, because He never ignores even a simple, subtle prayer.

The best thing is, He will never ever crush the hope that His children have in Him, His love will never fail us. I love You Daddy God, You are my strong tower. :)

Let's just wait, it's all going to be good in the end. :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 7:26 PM

Didn't know they grew sunflowers under my block. :) So pretty, but the picture doesn't show much.

I just realised I don't blog about all the important stuff that are going on in my life, instead I blog about (mostly) nonsense. D: Why is this so? Hmm I wonder too.

See that's nonsense too.

I guess I just have too much, way too much stuff and emotions going on. Don't worry most are good. :D To really sit down to slowly pour out my life would be really taxing. Basically I'm just lazy.

But my craps are good right! HAHA! :)

One thing that I'll always be enthusiastic to tell everyone though, that is God really loves you and me. Woohoo!
This good news would be something that I don't mind sharing again and again, it's such an awesome news to know that the most powerful being ever dotes on you. :) Come on and join me to be a beloved of God! :D

I love You Daddy God. :)

Monday, November 16, 2009 @ 10:04 PM

Check out G-Dragon dance! :D

Woohoo!

Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 12:50 AM

Woah what a day. Dance can be so tough. No, it's tough being a dancer. Versatility, discipline, strength, spontaneity, endurance. Phew just the way I like it. I'm so going to rake the fridge for my dinner later. ( I'm so going to swensons!) Random.

Just having this awesomely weird feeling of disconnectedness, literally. I'm guessing, you don't understand a single thing I'm saying right! I don't even know what I'm saying. -.-

Putting emotions and feelings to words-hard.

Hungry, blur, blank, knots, dread, ache, drowsy, setbacks, inferior, prayer, reliance, rest.

Nonsense post, just needed to spill something out.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 @ 11:13 PM

Silly Sarcasms.

Went to new creation to serve with siying today. We're always buying yami yogurt before going there till now, our loyalty card is almost filled up! Whoo 2 stamps out of 12!

Remembered my essay which I wrote for my promos. I wrote this sentence which was meant to be sarcastic, hoping the teacher will be humored by my wit. :D Fat hope, the teacher thought I lacked common sense. -.-

ME: An apple a day keeps the doctor away. Judging by the rise in obesity numbers and the increase in health-related diseases, I'm sure people have been keeping this mantra in mind!
Psychic TEACHER: Are you sure??

And I still thought wow what a great intro, what a great essay! Double -.- !

Wow! :D

Wa that's really blur!

We're trying to clean the wall, we're trying to smell the wall, we're trying to be spiderman! Actually we're just plastered against the wall. Can't tell right!

Life is crazy. With God, life is awesomely crazy. :)

Sunday, November 8, 2009 @ 9:54 PM

It's hard to bring people to Christ.

But God is not giving up, so I'm not giving up too.

Daddy God, give me strength, give me courage, give me influence, give me wisdom, all for Your glory. It's hard, but not impossible. Your lost children will experience Your awesome love for them, Your lost children for come back home to You soon. :)

Let's wait patiently. :)

@ 3:45 AM

IT'S OP TOMORROW!

And I've still yet to master my presentation stuff. Too slack, I'm way too slack. This is still an A level subject okay! :(

I repent, His grace comes.

Oh oh and I found out that GD is a Christian, now it becomes more personal, he's my brother in Christ! What a bonus! HAHA! I'm so desperate to have anything to do with him. Ahw so annoying.

Loving God, thinking of GDragon. x)

Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 11:17 AM

Woah Woah Woah I'M HAVING A MAJOR CRUSH ON G-DRAGON! Darn that young girl infatuation thing! I'm seriously in~~fatuated~~ love! xD

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Got to move it below so the video won't get cut off! Ah shucks I really like him haha!

@ 5:48 AM

It's much better with this larger font right? :D Haha should have changed the font size from the start.

Going to bring my dear granny to new creation tomorrow. First time doing this so I don't really know what the result will be but hey, let's just trust in God yeah? :)

Was talking to siying the other day about our dreams for the future. We are going to set up a Christian radio station when we grow up! Cool right! She'll be your DJ for the chinese sessions while I shall be your DJ for the english one haha! That's quite a big dream with much to do, but I'm sure God will help us with it. :)

Individually, I'm going to be a doctor while Siying's going to be a councellor for kids. :) We may not know what we have to go through to accomplish our dreams, but we do know that God will be walking with us through it. That's all we need to know. Looking forward to a bright future ahead, a future decided by a loving God. ^^

What's your dream? :)

Sunday, November 1, 2009 @ 8:18 PM

I have nothing to blog about.

Maybe I should just delete this blog. Maybe not.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009 @ 1:07 AM

Oh baybeh I'm so glad you're free free free from him! You no longer have to tolerate whatever crap he gives whoo!

And what's best, God will remove all the past hurt and pain that he has caused you, yeah bring that dude to God! Woohoo I'm so happy for you! Though I'm still so very mad at that dude, I'll trust in God like you to allow me to forgive in faith. :)

Baybeh when you told me about how joyful and free you were when I was walking you to the mrt station, I could so feel the love of God surround me like a shield. I caught your joy and peace and I just don't know whether to dance in celebration or shed tears of joy! Your joy is our joy sister. :)

You will soar like an eagle, Christ will soar with you over the storm. :)